Mittwoch, 7. Dezember 2016

Living in the northern part of the world

I am living in the northern part of the world for almost three months now. I have to admit I haven't lived in the "real" south before (coming from Germany), but still, it feels like I finally arrived in the Great North, like I've always dreamt about it. My journey began in late autumn with a free mind and a heart ready for a new beginning and great adventures. The excitement made me feel dizzy, but at the same time, I couldn't wait to meet new people, see new places, breathe in the smell of a new part of the world. 
And I breathed a lot of wonderful smells. The scent of fresh mountain air in the autumn sun, the prickling smell of the first snow on a winter morning, the warm tea after a long walk in the woods, the smell of popcorn, porridge or my blanket after an exhausting day full of laughter and the scent of so many more adventures.
I live. I finally live again, after sleepwalking for quite a long time. And after finally waking up, 
I feel well-rested to conquer the world. Or at least, the northern part of it. Oh Great, Great North, you became a home to me.

My new song Great, Great North dedicated to every single soul and place that showed me happiness again:

Sonntag, 4. Dezember 2016

2. advent sunday

Happy advent Sunday! The second candle is lightened up and flickers in the window's reflection. Most of the day is filled with darkness these days, but I try to go out in the morning to catch some sunlight and fresh air. It got colder again and I hope that snow will fall soon. This morning I woke up to the sun shining rosy and pastel in the treetops and so I decided to go for a walk. The sea was frozen when I went to the shore. The sun made the ice glittering and created a magical atmosphere because it was shining so low on the horizon. I walked on the rocks for a while, sat down and watched my breath in the air, threw some pieces of ice over the sea and listened to its sound. My hands got frozen and I went home to make some warm tea and some porridge. I continued reading my book and went for the sauna. Then I lightened up some candles and listened to some music. Candles make me so happy, they make everything so cozy. This season is my favorite! How has been your advent Sunday? Oh, it started snowing, how wonderful!

A few moments of this cozy Sunday:

Samstag, 3. Dezember 2016

once upon a time

Hyvää huomenta! It is such a gray and dark morning on this 3rd of December. I am listening to Light by Sleeping At Last and make some porridge with cinnamon and lingonberry marmalade. Tea is waiting for me as well. Such a calm Saturday morning. While I am making breakfast I am thinking about my life exactly one year ago. That time was very special and thinking about it hurts a little. It is strange to look back to who I was and where I've been. And now - I am here and I am me. Things changed, things happened. And it seems ages ago, that I left for a short trip to Romania. It seems like it has never really happened and has only been in my mind. 
But I don't wanna look back anymore and float in memories. I want to look forward and accept that life goes on and that I have to live in the now. There is so much going on in the present, I should not waste my time in past moments. They won't come back, I cannot travel in time. I should let them go and move on. And that's what I will do - I will enjoy my breakfast now and then walk to the city to look for some Christmas cards to send to my beloved ones. I hope you have a wonderful weekend! Do you live in the past sometimes as well?

Donnerstag, 1. Dezember 2016

in the end everything will be fine

Today I've learned that I somehow always find my way out of the misery. This morning I woke up to an email which informed me about a missed deadline of which I actually didn't know. The thing it was about was very important for me, so I freaked out and cried. But shortly after this moment of panic and anxiety, I went out of bed, got dressed and went to the office which was responsible for the subject (without breakfast, what didn't help my mood, but I was in such a hurry). I waited. Waiting is such a torture. I hate waiting. But when I went into the office I explained things and the dear woman I talked to helped me out. The stressful morning continued because I had to head home quickly to get some papers and then go back to university, had to send a billion of emails, and I still haven't eaten anything. But when I got the papers done, it was fine. Things were saved. 

After this hectic and nerve-wracking morning, I came home and Mona came over to continue knitting. She showed me the techniques for knitting the lower half of the socks. She left me alone later and I went on on my own while I was waiting for dinner to be ready. (It smells so good with the potatoes in the oven, mhh). But because Mona told me so many new things all at once I couldn't remember them all and I made a mistake but continued knitting without noticing it. After a few rows, I realized that something is wrong and that I made a mistake and for a second I panicked again because I thought that I could not go back so far because I already knitted a lot. But I tried and it worked out, so then I could continue the right way. 
After a while I got bored and went to the computer to write this blog post but I realized that the color of the text was white and not readable any longer and I had no clue why. Probably I changed something by accident yesterday while I was working on the design of my blog. Again. Like always, 'cause I like change. I had no idea how to undo this mistake and searched for some tips on the internet. But I didn't found anything helpful and was sitting in front of my computer clueless what to do and how to get my texts back. But then I just typed in some codes in the responsible sections on my blog in jest, and guess what: it worked. The texts were visible again. 

Okay, what do I want to tell you with this boring stories? - It will turn out in the end. Everything will be fine. I manage it. Somehow I always find a way out of the misery. It's not that I am always the one who panics and gets anxiety as soon as there appears a problem. No, actually I manage all the things pretty well and I stay calm, but today it was such an important subject (you will get to know more soon) that I really freaked out. But now, sitting in my bed with dinner, I realize that I always managed to find a solution for difficult situations so far. I somehow always find a way to get around the heavy rocks which fall on my paths. So I have to believe that I always find a way. And in the end, everything will be fine. And same applies to you.  I hope you are fine!